I've come to the conclusion that I am crazy. Reading the infamous Rev Run tweet, I now see why I am crazy. I do the same thing over and over expecting things to change. But they won't, because I won't. " Be the change you want to see in the world" - Ghandi. That's exactly what I am going to do. I'm going to be the change. You see, I go so hard for others that I care about, so hard. When I love, I love hard, and if I care for you, I care just as hard as I love. But when it doesn't get anything in return or shown respect, I continue caring with the same amount. Why? As a human I really should stop, but the God inside me continues caring.
I don't know how many times I've been cursed out, through drunken texts and then given an I'm sorry. I lied, I do. I've been apologized to twice. The other times I don't know. And yet I continue to care. I continue the "good treatment" when in return, I'm given nothing but false hope and a dream. You see no matter what is done to me, I take it? I guess I take it? But I don't know why. I ask myself, what am I gaining and what am I losing? The answer to both is nothing. Absoutly nothing. And I laugh because although nothing is at stake, I just can't seem to let go....
I guess
If you think I'm easily influenced, you are easily mistake -bToni
